Wow, has it been a long time since I last posted. No real reason for it than I find myself preoccupied and not necessarily with projects or hobbies. Mindless phone games. Why post now?
I got a new position at my job with a new schedule. I transitioned this week and it was kind of hard on my body. No matter how I arranged it, I was going to work 7 days in a row and I figured it just had to happen. I went from early mornings to mid-mornings and ending pretty much whenever I wanted but I hate not having a hard and set schedule so I’ll be working on that. I’m revamping a long-existing position that didn’t have industrious people in it for a few years. There’s also no checklist for all the things I have to do. But guess what? I love making LISTS.
I started doing things for myself. Probably spent more money that I should (see, I still feel weird about it) but it’s greatly improved my sense of self. What did I do?
I bought a new desk. I haven’t had one in a few years. I experimented with lap desks and trays but I need to sit at desk where I can rest my arms and lean into the screen because it just feels better than staring down at my lap. (I adjusted my screen again so I had to tilt my head up a bit.) Now, the desk feels a bit flimsy so I can’t lean on it too hard but that’s fine cause I also got a chair that’s good for my posture. Not a fancy deal just a sturdy chair that feels best when I sit up. I also made several desk organizers because I have accumulated so much office equipment in the last 10 years.
I started penpalling but it’s not going so well. I want to practice my penmanship and know what I hate? Workbooks. I’ll get there. I’m accumulating a small fountain pen collection and one glass pen. My handwriting is readable but I’m nowhere near calligraphy level. It’s calming. I do struggle with manners in this sense. Talking to a person, there are chit-chat rules. Still, it’s good practice.
I got a new TV. I put near my desk so that I can work at the desk and writing and or whichever. If you could see my desk right now, it’s pretty ridiculous. I can’t stop multitasking sometimes. I’ve got my laptop up, my tablet is playing a game and the TV is giving me a slideshow to go with my playlist.
AND I GOT PLANTS. I kill plants. Seriously. My mom used to blame me for her plants dying because years after her failed attempts, we would find out I was allergic to them and it was probably good they didn’t thrive. But now these are my plants. The little guy that’s upside down is drying out and he’s pretty strong to stay in the shot glass that way. Now that I’ve got him in there properly, he only goes to halfway. They all got a bath this morning and hopefully they’ll grow. The strongest ones have the least light but I plan to rotate them around the house. These are supposed to be easy to take care of because they don’t need soil, they get nutrients from the air (and purify it in the process), only need light watering, weekly baths and monthly plant food. The big one was in a cup the last few days (they all had to recover from shipment) and she started climbing out of the cup on her own. They make me so happy.
I’m back up to my top weight but now that I’m destressing on a regular basis that should come back down, as well as I have room, now, to do my PT. I busted my knee a few weeks ago so that’s healing and I have to take it a bit easy but what I found out last night is still true that when I drink, I feel no pain and will possibly overdue it. I’m a bit sore from all the standing all week, my voice has had it but it’s coming back a bit. Not used to talking all day. I’m going to find a way to record some things for the class to a) save my voice and b) be able to still have a class if I have to miss a shift.
I even bought some new clothes. Not a lot. Just a couple of shirts and some new jeans. I’m taking baby steps to take care of myself. My mood. A new shelf for my action figures. Some command hooks to hang my babies. A glass ink well to practice with my glass pen. Nothing bank-breaking, everything meticulously sale-shopped and that was part of the fun.
My next goal will be to take walks in the morning before work. But that’ll be when I don’t have to redo so much of the existing work. I feel like a person now. It feels good. I don’t think I’m going to start dating again though SEVERAL people mentioned it out of nowhere. Last night though, or yesterday afternoon, some dude came up to me and told me he left credits on the machine and he was “really looking forward” to what I wanted to listen to and not what my friends wanted. I had to have someone teach me how to use the jukebox and he didn’t even stay to listen to all my songs. Shrug. I don’t care. I don’t know who he is except that he is at the bar when we are and he’s obnoxiously drunk.
Took me most of the day to post this because I was up and down around the house putting it to rights which normally would take me days. Feeling good about things. I do.
Of course, I have new tune obsessions:
Barns Courtney – Champion
Alessia Cara – Here
Pretty Reckless – Make Me Wanna Die
The Kills – U.R.A. Fever
Barns Courtney – Glitter and Gold
Dorothy – Gun in my hands
Jason Manns f. Brianna Buckmaster – I’d Rather Go Blind
Jason Manns f. Brianna Buckmaster – Wrecking Ball
Banks – Beggin’ for Thread
The Dig – Jet Black Hair
K.Flay – Blood in the Cut